Ok, I just do not want to know anymore, this torturous siege is stalling me and confusing my already bruised ego. To think ye still have the cheek of even calling me with the rejection I must breeze through like nothing has happened. If ye ask me I just do not know why the attempt at making a fool out of me and then hysterical with a sudden outburst of calls and messages, is this a way of testing my inner strength or is it a practical joke aimed at tormenting my already tired soul. If this is what ye want then I ask for at least the respect I deserve and the credibility for making the effort and mustering a huge amount of almost-forgotten courage to ask ye out or just give me a break and give me a chance for expressing my deepest regard for a relationship. If neither works out then I am satisfied to remain anonymous and us as strangers for the better part of our teenage life or be just acquiantances if the request for friendship is accepted. I for once do not lose out and ye can just happily be the family-oriented, hardworking and diligent person like ye always are. I do not want to contemplate failure or lose for those two are minor and insignificant. If ye stay true to yer feelings then I would not even squirm or make a din and my compliance to yer rights are forevermore enforced. I have said my piece and albeit short, comes from the deepest part of my heart which is of course my soul. I do wish ye the best decision ye make with success and future endeavours fruitful.

I do not wish to repeat the mistake of asking someone out and not being returned the honour, for I have learnt that no matter how hard I have tried, the best that I can hope for is for the appreciation and love of a girl I have set eyes on. This in mind, I am going to concentrate fully on the opportunity my parents had given me from the day I was born, which is education and now education abroad. I can never thank them enough for though their role are not that influential, they have played a crucial role in making me understand the Tao of Human perceptions and behaviour. In my formative years the advice my parents gave and mistakes pointed out have made me who I am today, for without them I would not have known the dark side of human overtures and the lessons remembered my infrastructure. Even though I have my ups and downs and somehow some part of them have affected my parents, they did not conplain for they know that I can stand on my own two feet and though that might sound too risque but it is testimony to the individual I have myself to believe. I shall dedicate this latter part of my blog
to my lovely parents, sweet and contemporary as ever.

I LOVE MOM AND POP FOREVER AND FILIAL PIETY BE A PART OF MY CAUSE!

Ambiguity or just plain bullshit

The reasons for trying to act as busy as possible is to showcase my intolerance to a particular individual, or so the story goes like this. How I actually get to know that girl is a mystery among sarcastic vandalism and the whatnots, the only good part of her identity is when she is not bugging me and bombarding my room (sans the over-friendly gesture). She is garrulous, uncouth and loud-mouth, she is the equivalent of Donkey of Shrek the movie (Ok, so I believe that Donkey is way better) reading a Sunday Heralds. The only time I can read a book and go online while having a drink on a peaceful day is when girl F (only to protect her identity) is not around beckoning me to watch a movie and/or eating my chocolates (of course I do not mind giving sweet treats to my friends but this? *groans and uttter exasperation*). And I have only known her for a couple of days!

Meeting this person could be the error of a lifetime but it is not that I hate her or discriminate against her colour (read race) but sometimes this kind of person can only deteriorate yer moral and living standards. The only thing ye can do is to get rid of this person or actually tell them that the way they are behaving is just like the primetime television program about some teenagers (especially the clingy ones) ye see on sunday or reprimand them without the slightest of sympathy for them at all! If they still do not listen then get ready yer running shoes because ye life from then on will be an endless course for torment and leech sucking (urgh, just do not get too close to me). Other than that, if the sophomore effort of yers work, then the ever peaceful paradise of calmness and goodwill will hang out like there is no tomorrow (pardon me for the pun). Send me an email, congratulate yerself, enjoy life and organise a party with a few friends and enjoy the freedom that abounds.

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If the only thing that could be worst is the rejecting of a love because the crushing of egos can be brutal and fatal. If just because of that they cannot accept no matter how much ye try to ameliorate or change, then forget about them. I just want to forget that person once and for all, stay as friends or whatsoever, as long as my love for her dies out. Even if reality sets in, I would just move on and give the afore-mentioned event without even a second thought because the past is a fragment of my memory, without definitely any significance but just an in-yer-face warning so that I would not suscept to this kind of adversity. Anyway, the future definitely comes with the uncertainty and I am ready without any doubt of the fishes in the water.

So now it comes to me saying farewell to that past and live with zest the obstacles that is to either baffle or soften me physically and mentally.

Anyway, what is the hurry?

This is so vague

This is getting so obscure, like everyone I know cannot see, probably only the few with the worldly views and eagled eye enough to spot the difference. It seems that the only time I really get to read is the night (excluding daily visits to torment unsuspecting people, nah I aint like that.) The rationale is that the world is changing, but for how long? I thought that the Age of Aquarius has arrived, or should I say it has been around for actually 4 years and the progress I seek to uncover is dismal in effort. That is to say the ostentious can only wait to slip into a coma and die of ignorance. Why, when we said that new "age" has arrived but the catalysts causing the amelioration can only prove that sometimes humans are blind to the ebb and flow of the cycle and series of events all around us or for that matter the only change people can muster is a change to their pathetic ego. The only time when I have seen a change was approximately one year ago I guess, when the Singaporean Government are changing some of the national aspects like the National Service, which is reduced to two years and the allowance for an even bigger amount of freedom for us citizens is concentrated on. All these afore-mentioned things just stop there, and to aggravate an already irritated me, no news of reforms nor changing social demands and norms whatsoever. I think I will have to wait for some of the news but all are not big enough, like a new idea sweeping across the globe. Reassurance can only be a mistake, so I will have to assuage my standards on this Age of Aquarius then.

What to even anticipate is the social structure and reforms about to be experienced on a global level, the only labile to ever suffice can be the entities present in countries, especially the Middle East, no matter where the extremists and fanatics go, a trail of devilish scent can be sniffed or even seen, perhaps even the word devilish can be form of euphemism and they will decrease in number as sudden as winter becoming summer in one day. So, I can only wait and see then, justifiably I must know about the big events, those that impact on the masses. The nostalgia can only be tamed with the forthcoming events.

Collision of the great minds (Doesn't necessarily meant the contents)

I would like to say that the recent improvements in Singapore of the Art scene and other social aspects of Singaporean mindsets are positive to raise Singapore to be a more globally accepted nation but that can only prove the strict and abominable aspect of the Singapore government, that is the conservative views they sought to instill in the masses are still noticeably with the every step they had tried to censor films of political and social themes that might affect the young and the "patriotic" people of Singapore. The art scene has a far worst impact from the conservative mindset. Artworks portraying nude people kissing or just standing by a lake with swans and water lilies were considered tasteless and people would rather be languid to these artworks than fanatics of a certain monotheistic religion who would then call on a jihad to exterminate the population and "infidels".

That said, society is one of contradictions, its demands and norms normally directed by a government are fast becoming the jobs of the media, which has to some effect, been monitored or influenced by the said government. If this persist, it will be a a catastrophe sat up by its own jurisdication. To actually counter this form of unnecessary trouble, we must eradicate the contradictions present in the media, especially the newspapers (and to a small effect, magazines). But how are we to even start on this when the many theories that people have contributed leads to the societal demands and norms presented by the media? So what we must do is to leave it as it is, for even if I seem to be contradicting myself that cannot be helped anyway. Thats human nature.

In line for the reopening of the school for semester two and term three the begin, I have made myself comfortable with the idea that as time goes by, I would be deemed useless if I don't start a fitness regime of my own, a set of hobbies to curb with my urge to splurge in the city on cafes and fastfoods, a way of contemplating the existence of my life and to set goals for the course in University that I want to get in (I could have changed my mind for the umpteenth time but that does not matter, what matters is the fact that I want to get into Macquarie U, or if possible, to an American U of a prestigious merit.). These and including the things from my last entry, shall give me the every motivation and time to work on it. My only worry is that school would get in the way, that I think I can reassure myself with proper time management (get me an organiser! Oh, I remembered I've got two! Haha!). So there, I have got no problems nor any obstructions!

Anyway, I am feeling nostalgic and uber euphoric because it is orientation tomorrow and that means I will be getting my new timetable and get to mingle with the new students or people who I have not seen for a long time. The fact that a wider range and more specific subjects like Economics, History, Applicable Maths etc... had been offered and accept for me is like a dream come true. Of course not to forget that with a new term my objectives is clear and that I should study, work hard and keep the creative juices flowing. I am more than happy to congratulate myself for all the ideas that I had come up with, wait till I did all that and see me relinquish my hold on the school! *Evil smirk* *Jack regained his confidence and throne*

Okok people, with that said wish me all the best alright! Thank you! Till then stay tune to my next ranting!

So, the time for a change of the themes for my blog. I am 17 and I want to change the layout and the things that might look at if I am 14 year old male blogger looking for immature and crude fun plus the occasional I-am-acting-so-gangsterish-my-cock-is-gonna-poke-yer-thing (get the V word?) entries the seems to please all those pre-adolescent youngsters who thought that they should be cool and write about the gibberish their pathetic lives go through sometimes, or even occasional, depending on whether they are on holidays or "punking" someone. Maturity should be a theme that is emphasised. The sanguine part of me shall be exhibited at any chance! My main motive now is to design a new background and a better layout that showcase my ability in the creative arts (who says a high school student who is lousy at art cannot design?). That said, what is left is the motivation to outcast the irreverant and do it! With school reopening on Tuesday the 19th (Monday is the allocation of subjects with timetable), my time to do this will be limited and that will cause me to feel agitated (don't worry I won't abandon it in despair). So the list includes:
1) New Layout
2) New Title
3) New Background
4) Do away with some stuff
5) Include a comprehensive list of links and new stuff
6) Change anything that should be labiled

So there, may the amelioration process begins!!

This is a lame title

So y'all call me a lazy, narcissistic, arse-crack of a blogger. But what can I do? I cannot just change my way of writing the peaks and quirks of my excessive time wasting life. All I can say is that airing my views about everything from politics to sexuality is justifiable and do not need license, neither shall people's judgement force me to unwind the secrets of my life or even shut me up. Anyway, so life has been a dull one since last week and I really want to go to the city to have some fun, the typical teenager kind. I am elated and ecstatic about going for lunch tomorrow with Yang(yes, and she is from China) and maybe a few more people. So I would have to wake up at about 9 a.m. Lol! Anyway, so the anomality of some things actually baffles me, like, for example, when ye are called immatured by some people and when ye tried to counter them with a negative attribute of their character, they just brush it off and leave ye standing there like an idiot. This might seem normal but to the individual it pose a more complicated problem emotionally and mentally. The only way to actually curb this is to exercise restrain and try to change.

Sorry but this is a really short entry. Cya folks (explained stupidity)

I am back from five days of fun-filled adventures and bonding. Or was it since yesterday? Yup it is. Hmm, where should I start. Yeah, the five days were short but cleared up some past misgivings. And yesterday was the farewell to them. It was all good fun, but the emotions surged through the air like never before felt. I was almost choked by it, to the point of crying. It has happened before and it aint a good thing to do, luckily I maintained my composure and my joy preceded the feeling of loneliness with the hugs and kisses flying around, not to forget the photo-taking outside my "house". The feeling was mixed, like rojak (a kind of Malay dish that has a mish-mash of fruits, vegetables and sometimes meat). But I am so used to it that it became second nature anyway, so there.

Yesterday went to watch Batman Begins, its kinda cool but does not really appeal to me, the action scenes rocks but the story line is mediocre, like the director and producers does not have the falir for their allocated jobs anyway.

Well, today I was slacking as usual, supposed to meet someone but in the end I did not go because he cannot make it and my laziness dominated me for a good five hours before I muster up all my mental and physical strength to wash the dishes. Called PJ whether the BBQ will be taking place and she said it will be on tomorrow, but then midway she told me she will call me back, but up till now I have not received that phone call, hope she did not entirely forgot about that whole deal. Was kinda pissed when I called someone from the Net but was not sober enough to talk to him, like my mind went into a total blank. Anyway, I am gonna sleep because the brain works in a labile way and I have to meet up with some friends in the city (Perth Metropolitan).

Last but not least I would like to extent my heartfelt joy and goodwill to my brother who will be the first son of the Philip Ang Clan to be enlisted into the army tomorrow morning (friday the 7th!) and hope those officers won't treat him badly and those privates I am watching ye!!!
Cya peeps...Nighty nights