kkk, gotta admit, i did not really put my heart and soul into watever i have been doing, i do wish i have a goal to push myself, but i just dun have the heart to really study the subjects required. Sometimes i wonder why am i have such an attitude towards things, especially major exams, perhaps of my laziness, yet it could be my gullibility.... I love trying new things, especially things that had nothing to do with the world today, social norms and stuff people considered normal, i wanna be extraordinary and special, not to my friends but to myself. I wanna be true to myself, but the confusions kept coming to me!! Wat am i to do, stay and allow it to swallow me, or fight back and emerge victorious? i would rather choose the latter, coz life is indeed an experience and hurdle before we can pass to the next level! Trust is the word that i avoid, i would like to trust people wholeheartedly, but unluckily i can`t, its coz of the environment and the way that i was being treated... when i feel threatened, i retreat to a secluded place, unbeknown to the outside situation, my heart is protected by steel, but i left one part out, why? i don`t know, but maybe just one day i can figure it out, its a puzzle indeed! (To those reading this, i ain`t schizophrenic. Thank You!)