Arrgghh!!!!!! When i look at i my past blogs i realised how time flies when ye aint looking, and now is June 22!! I`m shocked, coz i thought yesterday`s June 9!! Lolx, Anyway, June holidays is a waste, coz i hasnt been doing anything, not even revision, what a waste of TIME!! Haizz....anyway, the 'N' levels` coming...argghh!! stressed, i wished i aint studying in Singapore, coz the educational system here have so many loop-holes i`m falling thru it everytime, I felt its a waste of time when yer selection of subjects to learn are so limited, waste of resources too! anyway. shan`t argue anymore, Shall spend this last week of the Holidays fruitfully and stressed-free!!!
*Le Freedom de Mana*

::Reflections Dedicated to my Beloved Dog::
Shadow

Hmm... I know y`all folks will think why am I doing this but it seems logical for me to clarify matters and express my heartfelt love for this beautiful animal who had been by my side for years, he is Shadow. Folks kept asking me why I did not cry for him, as crying is a form of consoling, of pouring out my sadness, but I chose and vowed never to cry for my dearly departed loved ones, no matter how painful it is. I know, as a male, I can not cry, but it is not because of this reason that I kept myself from crying, neither is it because of my ex-religion, which is Buddhism. I am a pagan, and everytime I said it with pride! Back to the topic: The reason is simple, I do not want to make Shadow feel sad, for he won`t be happy in his afterlife. Yup, that is what I really felt, it is by choice, not by centuries of dominations by my species. Shadow, ever since 1997, you have been part of our family for years, bringing joy, satisfaction and fond memories to us. For when we are sad, your barking gave us consolation, when we are happy, you brought us even more. I know I know, I miss you too. But life must carry on as usual, though you will forever be in our hearts. I hope your next life be filled with everlasting love and protection, this is from yours and only, sincere best friend, (signed)Jack.A.

Hhmm....its the holidays and i`m bored, so bored i am ready to ask anyone out, includin my dog! Anyway, yesterday went to a concert, its organised by my school, but was held in Victoria Concert Hall, name of concert? Its >>:Montage:<<, wat a "grand" name to begin with, the performance actually was kinda moderate, i dun really like it, it aint astounding as it sounds...even my friend thought its crap and halfway through the concert some 1/4 of the audience left! its funny but true! I dun think they should organise another one, it will disgrace me...hahahaa~! But yeah, its kinda fun though....Hhmm...i just couldn`t fathom the fact that some "encore" were actually planned! The audience seem to be forced into it, doesn`t it just sound so ironic? Anyway, i just dun wanna have anything to do with this school except for some of the teachers there!

>:Confessions:<
I am beginning to feel that life isnt all it seems, like i was from another planet, people simply just doesn`t understand me, i know i know, its a phase in growing up, but it is obvious teenage confusion have nothing to do with my predeciment. It could be my over-active imagination, it could be my supernatural abilities, it coul be anything, i am supposed to be someone with no worries, with nothing to do coz i have backups, but i am sinking into a reality adults often suffer from, can i not close one eye to whatever is or was going on? Coz once I have blinked an eye, reality sets upon me, of all that catching up i should do! Why am i questioning life? Why am i doubting every friend and everything i know? I have been finding a solution. Yes, indeed i have found solace in my religion, Asatru. But i can`t find answers sometimes! I kept trying to find out more about myself using quizzes and tests, but then, they just kept coming back with incomplete results, or new questions! Is life all that it seems, i often ask myself. But at last, everything just came to a nought. I hope my QUEST for KNOWLEDGE and ANSWERS will not bother my studies, that`s all i ask for, and which i want! Thanks to the people who cares about me, but please understand me first! Thank you