Sorry guys for the lack of updates, its either I do not have time for it or there were sopme complications. To start off, I had moved from my homestay to the Tuart Mews, where independence, responsibilities and freedom are offered. My homestay "mother" was actually stressed by alot of stuff, all related to me in a way or another. She was stressed with late payments from me to her, about whether I`ve done my homework, about me going out at night and coming home late, etc... Pissed off, sad, angry, frustrated were all I have felt on Monday, its like severe depression had crept on me and the prospect of moving out excited me! Sometimes I feel that having such sudden change of location and environment either frightens or excites me. Anyway, I have not got my ATM card from the bank. It have been like so long, about 4 weeks already? I kept enquiring about it and they said they have sent it already, I am so tired of asking! Just today I asked Ann, the International Student Office representative whether she had already received it, I told her to look for it thoroughly, after which she said she couldn`t find it. She then told me she will arrange a fax to the Bank. Damn it! I need my money, my convenience, my time, blah blah blah... Argh! Till the frustraion cooled off shall I write again, cya then! Auf wiedersehen!

What? Can hear no f***? Then f*** into that deep abyss aiight? Lol! The world is such a joke. What cannot be accomplished were slammed with critical brutality and ignorant comments. Hmm... I am bored, with nothing to do. Homeworks, none. Argh! I need some entertainment, going to the beach and stuff like that! I love the beach, it really shows ye how ye must be open-minded to realise the eternal flow of water. Ah, nvm... Anyway, last three days of school was aiight. About one teacher is boring and the rest are really people who works to get us going man! C mee is such a good person, so kind and so "on". I can`t stand it, I need to go to the city!! Anyway, cya coz the boredom is gonna kill me!!!

BACK!!! Two weeks passed so quickly, in such a short time I have made lotsa good friends, and from around the world, its cool! Yesterday was Australia Day, have had a really fun day. The people were acting crazy, having fun, dressed up in the Australian flag and partying!! We walked around the city, then settled on a spot under a tree in a park next to the Swan River. It was early and there wasn`t many people then, we relaxed, Davina took a nap, Weyyen, Lu Hao, Steven and Thong were playing frisbee. Waiting for the watershow wasn`t a good thing though the weather was superb, probably because the sun was raining down and barbeque-ing our already dead-beat bodies. Nothing much really happened in the afternoon, except for a few airplanes making smilies with smoke from the engines. Nazy and the rest complained about the smoke being environmentally-unfriendly. We talked about lotsa stuff, and danced to some beats produced by the DJ.

The Night was a much spectacular time. Everyone was kinda full, I ate fish curry with two bowls of coconut rice, mmmhhmm...simply gastronomical! The fireworks started at about 7.20p.m. It was absolutely stunning, hundred times better than in Singapore. I took lotsa photos using my handphone`s in-built camera. Everyone truly enjoyed the beautiful sight of the fireworks display! After the fireworks display, we went for about 30 minutes of dance! The Australians were wild! Everyone was dancing to such a point where we were induced into a trance-like state! The party then ended for us coz we had to catch the last bus home! The music still ringing in my ears! Lol! Anyway, gtg, cya for the next entry! Peace outz!

Hey everyone, I am back. Love y`all peeps!!! Really, it had really been a good week for me. Settling down in another country had never been this fast, i mean, like, i do miss y`all but thats what i wanna do! Ya, this blog entry may be a quick message, sorrie, will give ye a better entry next time, when I am all settled with stuff here aiight? cya! Auf Wiedersehen!

You Are a Seeker Soul

You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges. You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions. Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist. Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!). Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others. And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you. You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically. Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas. Souls you are most compatible with: Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Yup, so damn true to me...lol... Y`all people should go try, its cool.. Truly am a seeker, philosophical aspect I can`t say I doubt, but its true as it is. Hmm...anyway, I just found out that Alicia Key`s birthday is three days away from mine! Wonderful eh? Anyway, my birthday is on the 22nd of January! Heheh! I love her songs, inspiring and touching. Speaking of inspirational songs, Kelly Clarkson`s "Breakaway" accompanied me throughout my "N" level preparations, giving me determination to strive and go on to Sec 5, but well, who needs O levels when I am going to Aussie for my studies? Bellfire`s "You were meant for me" is the touching song currently for me! Yup, they are Irish but so what? Their vocals are edible to the ears, making for pop culture success, I am not doing shameless promotion or anything, if to be mistaken. I have realised how lucky I am to have such a B-E-A-Utiful handphone! Heheh~! Thanks Neal for saving my handphone from that Thai guy on that bus 26 two days ago! Gotta detox it coz that Thai guy sat on my handphone! What if he actually farted! Arrghh!! Worst come to worst, I`ll just scrub it with a spectacle cloth! lol! Anyway, gotta go, end of entry! Au Revoir!!

Have forgotten about Jan 1 2005 , wanna thank Ilario and Hana for attending the dinner at Cafe Cartel! Just this short, had fun taking neoprints with Hana, Ilario did not join us coz his parents gonna bring him home! Anyway, thank ye all again, including Yenn, coz had dinner with her on Jan 2 2005 in Genki Sushi! Arigatou Minna-san!

Life, such unpredictibility, such irony, shouldn`t i enjoy? Yup i`m enjoying every minute of it! Yesterday I breaked for the first time in a thousand years(exaggerations! actually 4 months.LOL) My chair freeze(checked), handstand(checked), hollowback(lost), toprock(still learning), headstand(have not practiced) and etc... I am lazy to elaborate aiight? Lol... Then changed to go townside, to browse at Kinokuniya, bought "Archaeology" my favourite magazine! Wanna shop around but was too late, no choice but to stop at Starbucks for some chilling, ALONE! Drank hot Vanilla, taste not really different from that of coffee, comes from the same plant anyway, read 8 days to past the time. End of entry for yesterday. Slacking here and there, didn`t go work coz I was tired and need a break! Lol! These few days will be packed with activities! Tomorrow gonna meet HANA for fun! On saturday will be going to meet Ining and friends. Sunday meet Cheryl, have not decided the time yet, later in the night maybe meet Sharmei for dinner(farewell). On Monday will be meeting Hui N Kuah for pre-departure briefing cum lunch cum seminar? Will be meeting ex-students of Tuart College and peeps who will be going with me to attend the same college. Phew! Then rest of the week till 12 will be slacking days. 13 will be the day of departure! Will be taking Qantas, time of departure 0855(8.55A.M.)! WHEE!!!! Haiz...of coz will miss ye guys, I didn`t regret this decision, so those who cannot respect it should dig into their brains and search for their dreams!(Or maybe some just doesn`t have a brain! Shan`t name `em, Waste of breath anyway!) Hmm...gotta go slack myself to death! Till then! Au Revoir!

Hmm...Its weird, A whole year had just gone by in an instant. I know I am kinda late in such stuff, but gotta take care of business...I will have a busy week and a half, coz i`ll be going out with lotsa different group of friends. It would be tough but I know its worth-while. Just had lunch at a vegetarian restaurant, the anbience is cosy but not too overloaded in that sense. The food would be considered an 8 and a half upon ten. Boon Kiat treated me, how nice, that kinda stuff aint common to me aight? okz...gonna write a conclusion about last year stuffs..so here goes:

Undesirable Events

Yup. Like the bird flu epidermic, it killed lotsa people, but the fact that its different from SARS in terms of behaviour means that it is less lethal than SARS. With the discovery that the CHICKEN is related to Human Beings coz about 60% of genes we have, well they do!

Abuse of prisoners in Abu Ghraib prison in Iraq. Yikes, such abuse, I can never take it, I would die instead. LOL

And

The huge earthquake that caused the Tsunami! It was frightening, it was horrible, it left hundreds of thousands dead! Oh, drastic the changes in the weather and the devastation of beaches and resorts caused by the wave! Estimated billions lost! What frustration, what anger, what sadness!

Okz..I know i know, can`t really think of anymore bad stuff, end it here.

Thanks

My Family

The jokes, the laughter, the sadness, the anger. I know I could be selfish at times, frustrated and stuffs like that, but I do love ye all. Pop and Mom gave me such great amounts of support. Sis, bro and Sammy, though I might be angry and we had our quarrels, we are still family rite? Reasonable, but see? Aint I changing? I would love to spend more time with ye all, but I am going Aussieland next year! Good luck for the coming years, I know y`all will be aiight and in good health, as always!

Close Friends

Happiness, sadness, attitudes, quarrels and good memories! Thank you all for the support and encouragement, I couldn`t have done better in my N levels if not for YENN, great friend as always! Ilario, for the fun times we had during almost everytime we spend chilling out at Kallang Mac, yer house and my house! Yuna aka ShuHarn aka Hana aka etcs. We had our problems but sharing it ain`t tough. Yer interest in Goth had me researching and finding it fascinating! All the fun memories and the Neoprints-taking with Ilario was great! The Gothic Lolitas, I would never forget the fun times we had! Sharmei too, I would miss yer wackiness!! Not to forget my New Age friends! Knowledge imparted and friendships made, busy year for us but we still managed to be close, thats GREAT! Sharlene(WanLing aka Crazy Gal), had a great time with ye! NPCC friends too, plus my juniors! Don`t forget me when I go to Aussieland aiight y`all peeps?

Friends

Great chat with all of ye, that short, but full of memories!

Pets

Shadow(Died May 2004) - I`ll never forget this loyal dog of mine, handsome but old. But bidding ye goodbye is a sad thing, but I didnt even expressed heart-felt sadness on the outside.

Xiao Bai - Ye this cute lil bitch! I can never forget how my Pop said that ye transformed from a cat to yer present state! LOL! Love ye forever!

Milo - Sweet lil Jack Russell! Love ye forever! Though ye are trapped in yer filthy rustic cage, I would never forget to pat ye and stroke yer small fur!

Myself

Changed alot, style, sub-cultures. Though I hasn`t been bboying much, but the bboy in me has never died out nor left me, the Gothic and Hippieness have really taken me to a whole new me. The wackiness hasn`t subsided. I just hope that the brand New Year of 2005 be filled with love, happiness, fun and not to forget adaption into the Aussie way of life yeah! I`ll be doing lotsa sports this year(2005), so stay tune!!!

So now, finished with all that conclusion, hope to write a better one this year(2005)! Have a great time!

LOL! Since this will be the last blog of the year for me, well, i`m gonna write till my hand broke! LOL! I`m kinda hungry, maybe getting some home-cooked food! Yummylicious! Hhmmm....alot of shit has been happening this week! Firstly, my Mum was admitted into Singapore General Hospital! Why, coz she has to be observed and stuff like that to diagnose any illness causing her legs to swell! And what the doctor told and scold her? Well, he said she might be in LIFE DANGER! And I thought doctors were professional and well-mannered! I would like to sue him for emotional damages, depression, slander, breach of trust and anything that we can get back from the medical costs accrued if the doctor didn`t find anything wrong! My Pop(father) was totally irritated and frustrated by such behaviours the doctor exhibit! I bet the doctor just wanted an increase in his bonus, perhaps thats the way he make extra money! Argh!! And that Tsunami crashing down most of Southeast Asia, its traumatic, horrifying, heart-wrenching, devastating and frightening, about 130,000 people died! The most death occurred among Europeans were British and most death in devastated areas from India! *Sigh* nvm..... I really wanna help them! I`m gonna donate about $50 if possible, some clothing and necessities for the poor lil children! Anyway, I`m gonna observe a minute silence.....l8ters!

I have a feeling today`s BBQ will be enjoyable, I am already getting ready for it. Yup, its Sharlene`s b`dae, kinda guilty not buying her any present, I guess I was too busy and do not know what she likes. Hmm...It is know that I have finally fathom why Ilario does not like going to parties and BBQ, it is a fear, something is stopping him from going to such events, he cannot even make an effort to come, even when he was in the class chalet he also felt awkward, really wanna help him. Ah! never mind! Anyway, work was kinda good, not many things to do today..hehe~! I have not even packed my bags and luggage for the up-coming journey to a brand new environment, and there`s a week left! Incredible aint it? Time has got a way of fooling with ye when ye aint looking eh? *Sigh* Gonna continue my work after slacking, then get ready to go for the BBQ! Woohoo! Life is so wonderful! Cya all around! Take Care! Auf Wiedersehen!

It is time to say farewell,
To years of school life in S`pore,
And to friends so close,
Going to a new environment,
It is a decision so chose,
A journey I must undertake,
Understand and respect it,
I aint gonna forget ye all,
Till we meet again.

okok..I know the font is kinda plain, lol.. Really wanna apologise if anyone of you read my previous blog entry dated Saturday 18 December 2004 and felt offended. Hmm...anyway, today was kinda uneventful for me. Went to work at 12pm(!!!), slacked for awhile, did some assignments, went to the bank to get queue number to deposit some cash(an errand), went back to work. And shit(!), forgot about it! The bank closed, I asked the freaking security guard but he wouldn`t let me in, I then showed him the queue number, he saw it and insisted that I took it from someone else! What a bummer! Just when I turn my head and walk off, he called me and allowed me to go in. Phew! Deposited cash, went back to office, work work work, felt cold so I went to get a cuppa teh-si, wow! great feeling, felt a rush of adrenalin and warmth. Argh! Thirsty an hour later, went to buy water, quenched my tired mouth.. The End of story, Later go watch Double Happiness 2!!

Okz, gotta talk about yesterday: it was fun! Went out with Sharlene aka Yichiko aka Wanling aka Crazy Gal. We went to shop for her heels. First to City Plaza, nice heels but all were too tall for her. Proceed to Singapore Post(Paya Lebar) to get some accessories, bougt some nice you-won`t-know-what and we went for lunch in KFC, chicken was delicious, anyway, I had been a long time since I had eaten anything from KFC, its good for a change. Took the MRT to Cityhall to find heels in Charles and Keith, found some nice designs and then went to Suntec. After that, we got on the MRT to Orchard to check out Far East Plaza, found none so we went for dinner(I mean my dinner, lol). Wow! The food was totally out-of-this-world! The Seafood Bee Hoon was succulent in its thick gravy, prawns, squids and vegetables!! Sharlene finally found a pair to go with her gown. Phew! We then proceed to to the MRT coz she was late for her meeting with her friend, I went to Kinokuniya and after much browsing, finally found a good book titled "A Popular Dictionary of Paganism" by Joanne Pearson! Went home and finally got to bed.

Well, thats all volks! Stay tune coz I might change template! okok, Cya volks! Auf wiedersehen!

What a world, What a joke! Yesterday was the day I collect my 'N' level results, and guess what, I got 6 points, aint that great? Shouldn't I celebrate? Well, glad to say, I aint celebrating. I mean, what is the use of such a certificate when I am leaving next month for Australia, leaving everyone behind? Hahah~! Such is the irony when ye actually realised people have dual characteristics, like a shield for the hidden person inside? Like, when I announced my plans to study abroad, lots of my good friends who doesn't seem to care about my life suddenly became so interested in wanting to keep in contact? Maybe it was a blessing in disguise, but I would like to clarify that I'm leaving for two years, not emigrating there! And alarmingly, people thought that I won't get to eat local food and miss eating fish and stuff like that, I will get to eat fish here! Like, what is the big deal about it? Ah, never mind, its just my opinion. Anyway, life was kinda boring...I didn`t do what I had planned the whole holiday round! Irritated by that...guess I have no mood, but I think that is just excuse on my part, I really wanna do it but where is the confidence?!?!?! Argh! Gonna get really to go Kinokuniya in Ngee Ann City and spend some time to chill on my own, guessed I love that kinda thing, to chill alone and read something I like! Thats all for today! Cya all volks! Auf wiedersehen!

Upon looking at my blog template, I`ve realised that it really looked outdated, stupid and very out-of-shape! The tagboard to some monitor screen might look out of place, the html and graphic definitely doesn`t match what can I do about it? I don`t think I can because I don`t have the latest Adobe Photoshop and I know nuts about designing templates, so if there are people who are patient and kind enough to teach, it will be a pleasure. Anyway, have been busy working the whole of November, so I don`t have time to bboy, play capoeira, self-improve, and other stuff that I love doing since last year. Really wanna start doing all this leisure and fitness activities. For this month I am going to resume my capoeira training, learn latin dances(salsa, cha cha, jive, etc), spend more time with family, play sports, go gym, hang out (chill) and squeez some time for bboy sessions. Anyway, gotta go work, later in the day gonna study German(do-it-yourself, lol). Cya. Auf wiedersehen.

Hmm....sorrie...for that loonnggggggg break, i noe i noe, my blog looks deserted, though i`ve updated last Tuesday...lol... Anyway, I dun noe whether my passion for breaking had stop long ago or that i had hidden from my mind, i dunnoe wats happening, anyone willing to show me the ropes again? i promise i will attend sessions....anyone, please guide me back to the passion i once had a year ago!! Please help, thanks!

Anyway, had dinner about 2 hours before i wrote this blog with my Uncle and they r kinda funny, i guess the British sense of humour had never been destroyed....lol.... sleepy now...gtg now, cya folks, til we meet again! lol!

confusions of the third kind Kinda bored..nothing to do, anyway, today is my mum`s birthday, gonna chill and have fun at the chalet.....adios amigoes

confusions of the third kind Kinda bored..nothing to do, anyway, today is my mum`s birthday, gonna chill and have fun at the chalet.....adios amigoes

Hey, erm sorrie...... i`m gonna summarise what i`ve been doin these past days....

6/9/04:
I took my Chinese N levels Written and Listening exams...hmmm...Hope i pass! must pass!!

7/9/04:
Combined Humanities - Social Studies...... Phew! luckily i studied one of the chapters that came out, and i mean only one came out!!! Phew! Hmm...Went to meet Leon, looking at every designer labels in Orchard road for men....lol...then to Borders in Wheelock Place.. Bought a magazine there, its about the current going-ons of the Egyptology world, its an excellent magazine. After that, we walk over to Kinokuniya to look for more books!!! I actually loved the books i saw there. A variety of books to choose from, we then settled in an area to read books, i met another friend there, we talk til about 9plus...Leon and I then proceed to HMV to look at the CDs. After that, we took the MRT and went our separate ways back home.....

9/9/04:
Discussed with mum and pop over going to Australia to study, my parents agreed!! Yay!!!

16/09/2004 - Which is today!
After my duty in the E-Shop, me and pops went to the Regional Education Language Centre. Upon reaching the place, we went to register for the IELTS, but the kind receptionist advised me to seek the councellors, we waited for some time. The councellor told me about all the options i can use to attend university in Australia. After the whole session, we decided i shouldnt go Australia next year. I almost cried to death about the decision. Never mind, anyway, i have decided i should STUDY HARD for my N levels and then my O levels, proceed to National Service, Foundation in University for a year then proceed to Full-time University Student! This plan will take me three years to get to University. Yes, I shall strive HARD and make sure I got into the University of my dreams. (UNSW) Advice: JACK STUDY HARD AND SMART, SHOW THE WORLD OF YOUR CALIBRE AND GIVE ALL YOU HAVE!

I`m feeling kinda wierd today..i have this feeling that whoever i made friends with, they will avoid me days, months or years........ Why must that happen to me? All i did was to be myself, only to realised i`ve been spurned.... have anyone actually considered my feelings? I wanna change my bad habits, but people should understand that i aint a person who would change my views about something, nor i am easily changed...i need time, not months but years, it takes years to nurture one`s thinking, one`s character, one`s ideas.....even one`s appearance, it doesnt take an overnight change, a leopard do change its spots, only that it cannot be seen easily, just like a person`s character, when they tried hard to change, only to be detered by people around them, they just lost hope altogether.

People ask me to get a steady girlfriend, but I think i`m ugly, has anyone i`m in love with ever showed care to me? its a NO....i dunno whether will i really get to be united with my soulmate...i think i should go overseas to chill, i love going overseas, i can leave my troubles behind and enjoy life like its starting over again...i wish...no i want to live in a place where my troubles actually doesnt co-exist with my life.....will that be possible...i have questioned myself....i wanna surface in a world where love r an a freedom of expression, i dun wanna it to disappear...but sometimes i just wanna kill everyone who had been loved in a sense, the sensous kind, the ever-lasting kind, the magickal kind.....yup my macabre self wanna surface to the world, to kill everyone who prevented love for me and anyone who has been loved....then my sadness would be resolved..... okz...peace out......

kkk, gotta admit, i did not really put my heart and soul into watever i have been doing, i do wish i have a goal to push myself, but i just dun have the heart to really study the subjects required. Sometimes i wonder why am i have such an attitude towards things, especially major exams, perhaps of my laziness, yet it could be my gullibility.... I love trying new things, especially things that had nothing to do with the world today, social norms and stuff people considered normal, i wanna be extraordinary and special, not to my friends but to myself. I wanna be true to myself, but the confusions kept coming to me!! Wat am i to do, stay and allow it to swallow me, or fight back and emerge victorious? i would rather choose the latter, coz life is indeed an experience and hurdle before we can pass to the next level! Trust is the word that i avoid, i would like to trust people wholeheartedly, but unluckily i can`t, its coz of the environment and the way that i was being treated... when i feel threatened, i retreat to a secluded place, unbeknown to the outside situation, my heart is protected by steel, but i left one part out, why? i don`t know, but maybe just one day i can figure it out, its a puzzle indeed! (To those reading this, i ain`t schizophrenic. Thank You!)