Hmm...to start with, life is nothing but a bitch! Heard that before? Well, chances are, if ye are to believe, its 100% true. Why am I saying that? Because if ye are in a country with 5 degrees celsius and below weather, stupid room that aint cosy, housemates who sleeps at 1 am in the morning and cooking in the wee hours of the night, well, ye got my idea. Simplifying this would be a waste of time, perhaps ye would like to read this over a cup of coffee. Of course I aint making any sense. Well, back to that topic. The times I spent in my room is equivalent to shearing a sheep with nothing on yer mind. So that means I aint thinking nor doing anything productive. Lol...My parents and elder brother are coming to Perth in two weeks! OMG!! I`m getting ready for 5 days of bonding and hugging and kissing and disillusions...lol
Hohoho...I`m ready to go...ciaoz...

I underestimated ye, I trusted ye so damn much. I have officially been made a fool or myself one. Why did ye did this to me, I dun want that, for I have put my heart into loving this great buddy. I have failed, truly the only thing that would complement would be a bucket of alcohol. I wanna poison myself, blood poisoning that is. The severity of yer actions had left me broken. Now ye called me yer "friend", or for that matter none at all. Am I doomed to have failed friendships? Am I suppose to put on a t-shirt printed with a "Loser" on it? Or a headband that says I am a failure for life? Dun make me do drastic stuff, I can and will. My broken heart extends to infinity. Can ye mend this broken heart? All these facets are just fake after all. I aint happy. Now ye had destroyed my will to accomdate this world. Do ye wanna be the next? Am I the catalyst to yer suffering? Do ye want more? My blood for sacrificial purpose? My flesh to spice up the atmosphere? My breath to cleanse? So be it. Ye said ye could be sensitive, what about me? Ye wanna turn me into someone who distrust even the purpose of my existence? What didja said yesterday? About not forgetting me and I`ll remain in yer Messenger for conversational purposes. I have said my piece. My feelings justified. I definitely have not left ye out. Even if I replied in short that doesnt mean I had lost interests in ye. Ye have my every support, a pillar out of pillars to keep the foundation in place. I am at a loss....

Hey people, back from that long of a break, yep its been more than a month since I`ve blogged, but its definitely no surprise that I`ve got a blog on Friendster too. Hmm, now to get straight to the point, a woman full of anguish, frustration, despondency and utter desperation. She is Schapel Corby, the woman now on trial for possession of drugs. Thousands or even millions have heard about her case, sympathetical of the inflicted torture on her tired soul, which was traduced to bouts of uneasy silence. Just one sentence could ruin her future. Yes, those Indonesian judges have no brains and hearts to start with. They could probably be corrupted and to achieve a form of stardom most often called shamely publicity or infamy if ye like. After months of being in the Keroboken prison and number of pleas to no avail, I want to reach out to Schapel. She could be at her wits end, but upon hearing about the recent criticism, slamming and accusations hurled at the judges, I felt relieved. Media power these days can possibly thwart even the most antagonistic plans on Earth! I do hope Schapel Corby be acquitted of those allegations and be free of such pain and suffering.

So there people, help Schapel and her family, pray for her, just do yer part alright? Such injustice should not go unnoticed, open that iron heart and feel her fading soul, have some empathy aiigh? Cya folks!

I have to admit, i`ve gotta wake up at six tml, go beach, do some last minute photo taking then going to the airport for my flight back to singapore! Yes, singapore, i dun really miss it but i`ll be eating lotsa hokkien fried noodles and stuff like that, yup, lazy to elaborate. Hmm, it`ll be cool hanging out with my family and friends, see how things have changed eh? Time past in one blink of an eye, such is the acceleration, from the time i got to perth, it flies, so I`m gonna make full use of the 10 days or so to catch up, hook up and gather. Heheh~ Argh, lazy...gotta go get some batteries supercharged yea? Cya, Guen Nacht, Traum Suss.

Okok, so here`s the stuff: Today, i went to school as usual, though its exceptionally colder than yesterday, I still love it. Mad props to the divine, especially Thor. *smiles*
After school, erm, well, that was it!! Yup, went to the supermarket to get some goods with Sarah, Penny, Ash and Lisa. I was laughing all the way, because Ash kept teasing everyone, especially Lisa. Yup, she is the victim of verba and physical torture, literally. Lol. After the shopping, while in the car, Ash kept manoeuvring the vehicle, to Lisa`s shock. She kept screaming away like there`s a fire or something. Anyway, back here typing this lil blog. Can`t believe it, and I`ll list down a few of my to-dos for this year:

1) hook up with some bboys here to learn all my moves again
2) get all the Ripcurl and Quiksilver accessories to complete my "new me"(Okok, its crap)
3) Score and do the best I can within my abilities to achieve a good standing in Year 11(Tuart College)
4) get to Macquarie University with the courses I want!(Double degrees)

So I guess thats all then, cya folks, peace outz!!!

Hmm...sands on my feet the whole afternoon, went to the beach with Michael, yep, he`s cool, he surfs! I`ll make sure I take every chance to learn this skill. Heheh! Yeah, so erm, sorry, didnt blog for the last few weeks, was lazy with no inspiration to blog, lol... I will be going back to Singapore in April! Woohoo! All the Char Kwey teows, Hokkien Fried noodles, Hokkien prawn noodles(soup of course) heheh...

Sorry guys for the lack of updates, its either I do not have time for it or there were sopme complications. To start off, I had moved from my homestay to the Tuart Mews, where independence, responsibilities and freedom are offered. My homestay "mother" was actually stressed by alot of stuff, all related to me in a way or another. She was stressed with late payments from me to her, about whether I`ve done my homework, about me going out at night and coming home late, etc... Pissed off, sad, angry, frustrated were all I have felt on Monday, its like severe depression had crept on me and the prospect of moving out excited me! Sometimes I feel that having such sudden change of location and environment either frightens or excites me. Anyway, I have not got my ATM card from the bank. It have been like so long, about 4 weeks already? I kept enquiring about it and they said they have sent it already, I am so tired of asking! Just today I asked Ann, the International Student Office representative whether she had already received it, I told her to look for it thoroughly, after which she said she couldn`t find it. She then told me she will arrange a fax to the Bank. Damn it! I need my money, my convenience, my time, blah blah blah... Argh! Till the frustraion cooled off shall I write again, cya then! Auf wiedersehen!

What? Can hear no f***? Then f*** into that deep abyss aiight? Lol! The world is such a joke. What cannot be accomplished were slammed with critical brutality and ignorant comments. Hmm... I am bored, with nothing to do. Homeworks, none. Argh! I need some entertainment, going to the beach and stuff like that! I love the beach, it really shows ye how ye must be open-minded to realise the eternal flow of water. Ah, nvm... Anyway, last three days of school was aiight. About one teacher is boring and the rest are really people who works to get us going man! C mee is such a good person, so kind and so "on". I can`t stand it, I need to go to the city!! Anyway, cya coz the boredom is gonna kill me!!!

BACK!!! Two weeks passed so quickly, in such a short time I have made lotsa good friends, and from around the world, its cool! Yesterday was Australia Day, have had a really fun day. The people were acting crazy, having fun, dressed up in the Australian flag and partying!! We walked around the city, then settled on a spot under a tree in a park next to the Swan River. It was early and there wasn`t many people then, we relaxed, Davina took a nap, Weyyen, Lu Hao, Steven and Thong were playing frisbee. Waiting for the watershow wasn`t a good thing though the weather was superb, probably because the sun was raining down and barbeque-ing our already dead-beat bodies. Nothing much really happened in the afternoon, except for a few airplanes making smilies with smoke from the engines. Nazy and the rest complained about the smoke being environmentally-unfriendly. We talked about lotsa stuff, and danced to some beats produced by the DJ.

The Night was a much spectacular time. Everyone was kinda full, I ate fish curry with two bowls of coconut rice, mmmhhmm...simply gastronomical! The fireworks started at about 7.20p.m. It was absolutely stunning, hundred times better than in Singapore. I took lotsa photos using my handphone`s in-built camera. Everyone truly enjoyed the beautiful sight of the fireworks display! After the fireworks display, we went for about 30 minutes of dance! The Australians were wild! Everyone was dancing to such a point where we were induced into a trance-like state! The party then ended for us coz we had to catch the last bus home! The music still ringing in my ears! Lol! Anyway, gtg, cya for the next entry! Peace outz!

Hey everyone, I am back. Love y`all peeps!!! Really, it had really been a good week for me. Settling down in another country had never been this fast, i mean, like, i do miss y`all but thats what i wanna do! Ya, this blog entry may be a quick message, sorrie, will give ye a better entry next time, when I am all settled with stuff here aiight? cya! Auf Wiedersehen!

You Are a Seeker Soul

You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges. You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions. Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist. Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!). Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others. And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you. You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically. Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas. Souls you are most compatible with: Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

Yup, so damn true to me...lol... Y`all people should go try, its cool.. Truly am a seeker, philosophical aspect I can`t say I doubt, but its true as it is. Hmm...anyway, I just found out that Alicia Key`s birthday is three days away from mine! Wonderful eh? Anyway, my birthday is on the 22nd of January! Heheh! I love her songs, inspiring and touching. Speaking of inspirational songs, Kelly Clarkson`s "Breakaway" accompanied me throughout my "N" level preparations, giving me determination to strive and go on to Sec 5, but well, who needs O levels when I am going to Aussie for my studies? Bellfire`s "You were meant for me" is the touching song currently for me! Yup, they are Irish but so what? Their vocals are edible to the ears, making for pop culture success, I am not doing shameless promotion or anything, if to be mistaken. I have realised how lucky I am to have such a B-E-A-Utiful handphone! Heheh~! Thanks Neal for saving my handphone from that Thai guy on that bus 26 two days ago! Gotta detox it coz that Thai guy sat on my handphone! What if he actually farted! Arrghh!! Worst come to worst, I`ll just scrub it with a spectacle cloth! lol! Anyway, gotta go, end of entry! Au Revoir!!

Have forgotten about Jan 1 2005 , wanna thank Ilario and Hana for attending the dinner at Cafe Cartel! Just this short, had fun taking neoprints with Hana, Ilario did not join us coz his parents gonna bring him home! Anyway, thank ye all again, including Yenn, coz had dinner with her on Jan 2 2005 in Genki Sushi! Arigatou Minna-san!

Life, such unpredictibility, such irony, shouldn`t i enjoy? Yup i`m enjoying every minute of it! Yesterday I breaked for the first time in a thousand years(exaggerations! actually 4 months.LOL) My chair freeze(checked), handstand(checked), hollowback(lost), toprock(still learning), headstand(have not practiced) and etc... I am lazy to elaborate aiight? Lol... Then changed to go townside, to browse at Kinokuniya, bought "Archaeology" my favourite magazine! Wanna shop around but was too late, no choice but to stop at Starbucks for some chilling, ALONE! Drank hot Vanilla, taste not really different from that of coffee, comes from the same plant anyway, read 8 days to past the time. End of entry for yesterday. Slacking here and there, didn`t go work coz I was tired and need a break! Lol! These few days will be packed with activities! Tomorrow gonna meet HANA for fun! On saturday will be going to meet Ining and friends. Sunday meet Cheryl, have not decided the time yet, later in the night maybe meet Sharmei for dinner(farewell). On Monday will be meeting Hui N Kuah for pre-departure briefing cum lunch cum seminar? Will be meeting ex-students of Tuart College and peeps who will be going with me to attend the same college. Phew! Then rest of the week till 12 will be slacking days. 13 will be the day of departure! Will be taking Qantas, time of departure 0855(8.55A.M.)! WHEE!!!! Haiz...of coz will miss ye guys, I didn`t regret this decision, so those who cannot respect it should dig into their brains and search for their dreams!(Or maybe some just doesn`t have a brain! Shan`t name `em, Waste of breath anyway!) Hmm...gotta go slack myself to death! Till then! Au Revoir!

Hmm...Its weird, A whole year had just gone by in an instant. I know I am kinda late in such stuff, but gotta take care of business...I will have a busy week and a half, coz i`ll be going out with lotsa different group of friends. It would be tough but I know its worth-while. Just had lunch at a vegetarian restaurant, the anbience is cosy but not too overloaded in that sense. The food would be considered an 8 and a half upon ten. Boon Kiat treated me, how nice, that kinda stuff aint common to me aight? okz...gonna write a conclusion about last year stuffs..so here goes:

Undesirable Events

Yup. Like the bird flu epidermic, it killed lotsa people, but the fact that its different from SARS in terms of behaviour means that it is less lethal than SARS. With the discovery that the CHICKEN is related to Human Beings coz about 60% of genes we have, well they do!

Abuse of prisoners in Abu Ghraib prison in Iraq. Yikes, such abuse, I can never take it, I would die instead. LOL

And

The huge earthquake that caused the Tsunami! It was frightening, it was horrible, it left hundreds of thousands dead! Oh, drastic the changes in the weather and the devastation of beaches and resorts caused by the wave! Estimated billions lost! What frustration, what anger, what sadness!

Okz..I know i know, can`t really think of anymore bad stuff, end it here.

Thanks

My Family

The jokes, the laughter, the sadness, the anger. I know I could be selfish at times, frustrated and stuffs like that, but I do love ye all. Pop and Mom gave me such great amounts of support. Sis, bro and Sammy, though I might be angry and we had our quarrels, we are still family rite? Reasonable, but see? Aint I changing? I would love to spend more time with ye all, but I am going Aussieland next year! Good luck for the coming years, I know y`all will be aiight and in good health, as always!

Close Friends

Happiness, sadness, attitudes, quarrels and good memories! Thank you all for the support and encouragement, I couldn`t have done better in my N levels if not for YENN, great friend as always! Ilario, for the fun times we had during almost everytime we spend chilling out at Kallang Mac, yer house and my house! Yuna aka ShuHarn aka Hana aka etcs. We had our problems but sharing it ain`t tough. Yer interest in Goth had me researching and finding it fascinating! All the fun memories and the Neoprints-taking with Ilario was great! The Gothic Lolitas, I would never forget the fun times we had! Sharmei too, I would miss yer wackiness!! Not to forget my New Age friends! Knowledge imparted and friendships made, busy year for us but we still managed to be close, thats GREAT! Sharlene(WanLing aka Crazy Gal), had a great time with ye! NPCC friends too, plus my juniors! Don`t forget me when I go to Aussieland aiight y`all peeps?

Friends

Great chat with all of ye, that short, but full of memories!

Pets

Shadow(Died May 2004) - I`ll never forget this loyal dog of mine, handsome but old. But bidding ye goodbye is a sad thing, but I didnt even expressed heart-felt sadness on the outside.

Xiao Bai - Ye this cute lil bitch! I can never forget how my Pop said that ye transformed from a cat to yer present state! LOL! Love ye forever!

Milo - Sweet lil Jack Russell! Love ye forever! Though ye are trapped in yer filthy rustic cage, I would never forget to pat ye and stroke yer small fur!

Myself

Changed alot, style, sub-cultures. Though I hasn`t been bboying much, but the bboy in me has never died out nor left me, the Gothic and Hippieness have really taken me to a whole new me. The wackiness hasn`t subsided. I just hope that the brand New Year of 2005 be filled with love, happiness, fun and not to forget adaption into the Aussie way of life yeah! I`ll be doing lotsa sports this year(2005), so stay tune!!!

So now, finished with all that conclusion, hope to write a better one this year(2005)! Have a great time!

LOL! Since this will be the last blog of the year for me, well, i`m gonna write till my hand broke! LOL! I`m kinda hungry, maybe getting some home-cooked food! Yummylicious! Hhmmm....alot of shit has been happening this week! Firstly, my Mum was admitted into Singapore General Hospital! Why, coz she has to be observed and stuff like that to diagnose any illness causing her legs to swell! And what the doctor told and scold her? Well, he said she might be in LIFE DANGER! And I thought doctors were professional and well-mannered! I would like to sue him for emotional damages, depression, slander, breach of trust and anything that we can get back from the medical costs accrued if the doctor didn`t find anything wrong! My Pop(father) was totally irritated and frustrated by such behaviours the doctor exhibit! I bet the doctor just wanted an increase in his bonus, perhaps thats the way he make extra money! Argh!! And that Tsunami crashing down most of Southeast Asia, its traumatic, horrifying, heart-wrenching, devastating and frightening, about 130,000 people died! The most death occurred among Europeans were British and most death in devastated areas from India! *Sigh* nvm..... I really wanna help them! I`m gonna donate about $50 if possible, some clothing and necessities for the poor lil children! Anyway, I`m gonna observe a minute silence.....l8ters!

I have a feeling today`s BBQ will be enjoyable, I am already getting ready for it. Yup, its Sharlene`s b`dae, kinda guilty not buying her any present, I guess I was too busy and do not know what she likes. Hmm...It is know that I have finally fathom why Ilario does not like going to parties and BBQ, it is a fear, something is stopping him from going to such events, he cannot even make an effort to come, even when he was in the class chalet he also felt awkward, really wanna help him. Ah! never mind! Anyway, work was kinda good, not many things to do today..hehe~! I have not even packed my bags and luggage for the up-coming journey to a brand new environment, and there`s a week left! Incredible aint it? Time has got a way of fooling with ye when ye aint looking eh? *Sigh* Gonna continue my work after slacking, then get ready to go for the BBQ! Woohoo! Life is so wonderful! Cya all around! Take Care! Auf Wiedersehen!

It is time to say farewell,
To years of school life in S`pore,
And to friends so close,
Going to a new environment,
It is a decision so chose,
A journey I must undertake,
Understand and respect it,
I aint gonna forget ye all,
Till we meet again.

okok..I know the font is kinda plain, lol.. Really wanna apologise if anyone of you read my previous blog entry dated Saturday 18 December 2004 and felt offended. Hmm...anyway, today was kinda uneventful for me. Went to work at 12pm(!!!), slacked for awhile, did some assignments, went to the bank to get queue number to deposit some cash(an errand), went back to work. And shit(!), forgot about it! The bank closed, I asked the freaking security guard but he wouldn`t let me in, I then showed him the queue number, he saw it and insisted that I took it from someone else! What a bummer! Just when I turn my head and walk off, he called me and allowed me to go in. Phew! Deposited cash, went back to office, work work work, felt cold so I went to get a cuppa teh-si, wow! great feeling, felt a rush of adrenalin and warmth. Argh! Thirsty an hour later, went to buy water, quenched my tired mouth.. The End of story, Later go watch Double Happiness 2!!

Okz, gotta talk about yesterday: it was fun! Went out with Sharlene aka Yichiko aka Wanling aka Crazy Gal. We went to shop for her heels. First to City Plaza, nice heels but all were too tall for her. Proceed to Singapore Post(Paya Lebar) to get some accessories, bougt some nice you-won`t-know-what and we went for lunch in KFC, chicken was delicious, anyway, I had been a long time since I had eaten anything from KFC, its good for a change. Took the MRT to Cityhall to find heels in Charles and Keith, found some nice designs and then went to Suntec. After that, we got on the MRT to Orchard to check out Far East Plaza, found none so we went for dinner(I mean my dinner, lol). Wow! The food was totally out-of-this-world! The Seafood Bee Hoon was succulent in its thick gravy, prawns, squids and vegetables!! Sharlene finally found a pair to go with her gown. Phew! We then proceed to to the MRT coz she was late for her meeting with her friend, I went to Kinokuniya and after much browsing, finally found a good book titled "A Popular Dictionary of Paganism" by Joanne Pearson! Went home and finally got to bed.

Well, thats all volks! Stay tune coz I might change template! okok, Cya volks! Auf wiedersehen!

What a world, What a joke! Yesterday was the day I collect my 'N' level results, and guess what, I got 6 points, aint that great? Shouldn't I celebrate? Well, glad to say, I aint celebrating. I mean, what is the use of such a certificate when I am leaving next month for Australia, leaving everyone behind? Hahah~! Such is the irony when ye actually realised people have dual characteristics, like a shield for the hidden person inside? Like, when I announced my plans to study abroad, lots of my good friends who doesn't seem to care about my life suddenly became so interested in wanting to keep in contact? Maybe it was a blessing in disguise, but I would like to clarify that I'm leaving for two years, not emigrating there! And alarmingly, people thought that I won't get to eat local food and miss eating fish and stuff like that, I will get to eat fish here! Like, what is the big deal about it? Ah, never mind, its just my opinion. Anyway, life was kinda boring...I didn`t do what I had planned the whole holiday round! Irritated by that...guess I have no mood, but I think that is just excuse on my part, I really wanna do it but where is the confidence?!?!?! Argh! Gonna get really to go Kinokuniya in Ngee Ann City and spend some time to chill on my own, guessed I love that kinda thing, to chill alone and read something I like! Thats all for today! Cya all volks! Auf wiedersehen!

Upon looking at my blog template, I`ve realised that it really looked outdated, stupid and very out-of-shape! The tagboard to some monitor screen might look out of place, the html and graphic definitely doesn`t match what can I do about it? I don`t think I can because I don`t have the latest Adobe Photoshop and I know nuts about designing templates, so if there are people who are patient and kind enough to teach, it will be a pleasure. Anyway, have been busy working the whole of November, so I don`t have time to bboy, play capoeira, self-improve, and other stuff that I love doing since last year. Really wanna start doing all this leisure and fitness activities. For this month I am going to resume my capoeira training, learn latin dances(salsa, cha cha, jive, etc), spend more time with family, play sports, go gym, hang out (chill) and squeez some time for bboy sessions. Anyway, gotta go work, later in the day gonna study German(do-it-yourself, lol). Cya. Auf wiedersehen.